ntah paper je la

tomorrow i will going to perak for few day. i need space to make myself busy so i dont have to remember something that i want to keep.i tend to make my life more difficult because if i didnt do that i might going make myself tired without doing nothing. a lot of time just wasted without nothing interesting happen.i really want to experience many thing around me.
my mind move freely doing anything that i have to do.. it feel like i dont have control on my body anymore..mind so confused but it getting worse if i didnt do anything...